Christmas Un-Merry

I am not sure why I am having such a hard time getting in the mood for this holiday season. I am usually so excited and have sent nearly 200 Christmas cards. But this year.. I have only opened a couple of the many I have recieved. And I have sent none. I have the stamps and the cards.. and yet. I am letting my responsibilities fall to the side and I am being reclusive. I really have got to get over myself. It is so unlike me.

Vacation plans on hold.... hold....

So now it may be time to re-think my vacation plans. Originally I was going to the Fina Long Course World Championships becasue it was going to give me something to do at night while I looked at a new city. Now Montreal may not be ready to house the event. So I have to ask myself .. do I still go to Montreal.. or do I go where the championships go? I am so torn especially if the event is held here. That is the current buzz. I think I can get a refund on my flight, but I should wait a while to bail out. I know all things will work out for the best. I just hate waiting. I need to learn patience.